Stress or no stress???? ish...

3 weeks of Psych then 3 weeks of Health Care of the Elderly, then 3 weeks of Psych again... sheesh!!! And here I am, all jumbled up with demented patients, psychotic patients, aggressive patients signs and symptoms... For once, i feel so dumb... gah.... time to buck up and as Paul said, “I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us” (Philippians 3:13-14)

This article serves as a reminder again and again of moving beyond mediocrity and to reach towards the goal He and I made together. With 2 ever-willing and enthusiastic SpR so eager to keep me occupied what more can I ask? hahhahha...

And besides that, I had an awesome weekend of rest and catching up and just doing nothing! In the little town of Tooting, if u call that a town... hahahha... Meeting new people, catching up with friends, in the company of ppl who were part of my life in IMU, not forgetting shopping and window shopping(!!!!) was just awesome! A well rested one, with no worries... Thank you, Lynn!!!! *hugs*

Time to get started on reading... All that's n my head now is clozapine... @.@ the "wonder" medicine in forensic psych! hahahha...

Freeeeeeedddddooooommmmmm!!!

Well... nearly freedom but the the feelings of elation deep within is irresistable... LOL... First time in my life (or maybe in recent years) have I completed an assigned task way earlier than the deadline.... =) The reports which are due in on Monday, have finally been completed way ahead of time despite it involving sacrificing many hours of sleep. I look forward to bed tonight! =)

4 reports to be completed in 3 weeks, with 2 holding a 67% weightage for this module sucks big time... Anyway, I hope that i did a good work out of it... I am in no way a suitable constructive criticism candidate for my own work...I have yet to learn this whole thing of constructive criticism thing that is ever present in all reports here... gah!

One ECT in the morning to be signed off tomorrow for my Psych module, and a forum cum presentation to get signed off for this Health Care of the Elderly Module and I am done with geriatrics...

My 2 cents of this whole posting: psycho-geriatric has been fun.. despite having conversations going no where with patients, and following them wandering around corridors attempting to get information with them and following them on their journeys to land-of-dunno-where... Maybe I have yet to see their aggressive and sun-downing bit yet... Geriatrics... hmmm... the working hours do sound tempting indeed... In fact both this have fixed 9-5 working hours or even lesser! but, I'm not too sure how I myself would cope meeting old age patients everyday.. The cheerful ones will make my day like this lady I met this morning! but those who go about mourning about their pains and aches and not being able to do this and that but wanting to do it hmmmm...

Looking forward to 12 hours from now! muahhahahha...

Psalm 139

A psalm that never fails to encourage at any time... And what amazes me is how it speaks in different ways each time and how a different verse may strike each time.. Yet again, it happens throughout the bible.. But anyway, here's it... A reminder for each and everyone again... And a video of it too.. :)

Psalms 139

¹ O LORD, You have searched me and known me.

² You know my sitting down and my rising up;

You understand my thought afar off.

³ You comprehend my path and my lying down,

And are acquainted with all my ways.

⁴ For there is not a word on my tongue,

But behold, O LORD, You know it altogether.

⁵ You have hedged me behind and before,

And laid Your hand upon me.

⁶ Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;

It is high, I cannot attain it.

⁷ Where can I go from Your Spirit?

Or where can I flee from Your presence?

⁸ If I ascend into heaven, You are there;

If I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there.

⁹ If I take the wings of the morning,

And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,

¹⁰ Even there Your hand shall lead me,

And Your right hand shall hold me.

¹¹ If I say, “Surely the darkness shall fall on me,”

Even the night shall be light about me;

¹² Indeed, the darkness shall not hide from You,

But the night shines as the day;

The darkness and the light are both alike to You.

¹³ For You formed my inward parts;

You covered me in my mother’s womb.

¹⁴ I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;

Marvelous are Your works,

And that my soul knows very well.

¹⁵ My frame was not hidden from You,

When I was made in secret,

And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.

¹⁶ Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.

And in Your book they all were written,

The days fashioned for me,

When as yet there were none of them.

¹⁷ How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!

How great is the sum of them!

¹⁸ If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand;

When I awake, I am still with You.

¹⁹ Oh, that You would slay the wicked, O God!

Depart from me, therefore, you bloodthirsty men.

²⁰ For they speak against You wickedly;

Your enemies take Your name in vain.

²¹ Do I not hate them, O LORD, who hate You?

And do I not loathe those who rise up against You?

²² I hate them with perfect hatred;

I count them my enemies.

²³ Search me, O God, and know my heart;

Try me, and know my anxieties;

²⁴ And see if there is any wicked way in me,

And lead me in the way everlasting.

²³ Search me, O God, and know my heart;

Try me, and know my anxieties;

²⁴ And see if there is any wicked way in me,

And lead me in the way everlasting.

Had a rested weekend, but it just never seems to be enough... Had a wonderful dinner last nite, with hand-made pizzas of all different flavours inclusive of a belacan brinjal flavour one (haha!) =) and a western version of drunken chicken...

Just booked my train tickets to London!!! (wheeeee....) to be with good company this coming Friday for 4 days, to catch up, rest and relax and above all, with a like-minded sister! Can't wait!! Not forgetting the arrival of Miss Lee T Suisse this Tuesday in Nottingham!!! A happening week ahead... but not forgetting 4 reports to hand in before I leave Notts on Friday! @.@

A Promised Covenant

I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth. -Genesis 9:13-

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It's just one of those days where you know there are loads of stuffs waiting to be done, yet you can't be bothered to do it... Doing anything just doesn't seem right at the moment... The can't-be-bothered feeling just doesn't seem to go away...

Thoughts just run through my head... Gone are the times where I talk endlessly, sharing my thoughts, hearing what others have to say, truly and deeply from within the heart... At times I feel i need the rest, at times I yearn for it.. What can I say... a new phase of life, new learning to be done yet should I say i don't know how... I feel at a loss in fact...

I know I'm just rambling off.. To some it makes sense, to some it seems like rubbish.. But whatever it is... it's occupying my mind, my time... That's what I need... There is an urge to go jogging to shake off all these thoughts but in the middle of the night... My resort for times like this... Not a wise choice being a girl... Would it be different running in the middle of the night being a guy? haha...

I guess.. Sleeping it off is the best thing to do now then... Goodnite... I want to look forward to a new fruitful day please...

A cold slack-y day...

I went to bed early last night, 10.30!!! .... first time in ages??? hiding in the warmth of my comforter, finally catching up on reading... Managed to register with the Central Library and get a library card for free! =) Was awaken cruelly this morning by hiccups... argh!!! I just hope it doesnt come again in the middle of tutorials later... @.@

The sun is shining brightly for once this morning, and I pray that this stays on throughout the day! British weather is getting on many people nerves nowadays! One second, it is bright and sunny, and the next, it's gloomy and raining cats and dogs! And I have been caught in such situations 2 or 3 times in the last 2 days?????!!!!!! And just when i was less than 100 steps outside my house, getting my pants all soaked! blehz...

But despite the sunni-ness, my room is still chilly... My hands are cold even as I type this and even after a hot cup of coffee! Thank goodness my coffee has restrained me from going back to bed, but sadly it did not refrain me from sitting in from of me lovaleee mac, surfing through and catching up on blogs, news, videos and mainly blogs! hahahhaha... oh yeah... and reserving book from the library! Thanks to reading Sharon's blog, i got to know that the Enid Blyton series has new add-ons to the Malory Towers and St Clare's series! wheeee... ;p Yes... I still miss reading the Enid Blyton series... and it's time to catch up on it! Those are childhood memories!

The initial intention for the day was to get up early and catch up on 2 weeks of Psych need-to-know, but looking at the time now, and a tutorial at 2, it seems a little impossible... Blame it on the on-holiday consultants! ;p kidding... To go or not to go tutorial, that is the question! @.@

Saturday!!!

And so... another Saturday came and went! I don't get why the week goes by creeping so slowly but not weekends... Gah... I need longer weekends!

I woke up at 8-ish and before I knew it, it was 12 noon and I was rushing back from town to get the birthday girl's present wrapped and getting all to sign it, and then there was this quaint old place in between Nottingham and Derby. That is absolutely fantabulous! 'Tis the one place that reminds me of England as seen in movies, with its cottage, having tea in those little china pots, or just like how it's described in some novels. Pictures shall be up soon I hope, for I had no camera! Tan Swee Leen if u are reading this, I've a feeling u will so like this place! hahahha... ;p

And nothing beats a good Thai dinner of reasonable price, then a surprise birthday blowing and 'smashing'! hahhahha... And that's where my story ends once again. Another Saturday gone... =( But it was an awesome one!